List Of Shame

I despair, I really do. Just how transparent does a case of faking an abduction have to be before one of these cocksuckers says, "hang on a minute this is nonsense, a half wit can see what's going on here?"

I use the word "say" metaphorically of course, it's hard to say anything when you are on your knees and your mouth is full of Mitchell-McCann cock. Little point in me asking have they no shame, it's patently obvious, as patently obvious as the guilt and the lies that have come out of the mouths of the McCanns, the Tapas Seven and Clarence, I'm such a Lying cunt, Mitchell ever since day one of this sordid tragedy cum farce.

But the day will come, hopefully sooner than later, when something breaks in this case, something so glaringly blatant that it cannot be put aside or swept under the rug any more and ALL those involved in this foul travesty will at last face the justice that is due to them.

When that day does finally come it will be then that I shall publish in the largest boldest font possible, the words, I FUCKING TOLD YOU SO, though I do feel I won't hold exclusive rights to this little piece of phraseology .

I do take some comfort that Madeleine McCann will not become another JonBenet Ramsey, and my reasoning is quite simply, two people, one of them now dead, know what truly happened to JonBenet that night in Boulder Colorado, just two people, unlike of course the vastly different number of people who are well aware of the fate of Madeleine McCann.

And as history has taught us, "Three may keep a secret-if two of them are dead."
How many know the secret of this despicable pair, how long before one of them gives the McCanns up?

~ ~ ~

List of Shame

Mirror.co.uk - Hope for Madeleine
Mirror.co.uk - New hope for Maddy and Ben
Examiner.com - Case of Jaycee Lee Dugard gives hope to parents of Madeleine McCann
The opinion of Murcia - The McCanns have not lost hope
The Sun - case gives new hope to Maddie
Daily Star - Madeleine simply could appear as Jaycee
Veja.com - Family of Madeleine McCann hopeful the case of Jaycee

Full list at: Until We Know The Truth. Click on Mercedes Blog in the side bar for the Story in English, posted under "Jaycee Dugard"

Oi! You, You Really Have To Stop Writing This Shite

And I really have to stop buggering about with strange graphics.

My original intention was to parse, point by point and line by line this undisguised blatant smear of Goncalo Amaral by Daily Star hack Jerry Lawton, but word association took me down memory lane and I ended (what a surprise) doing another graphic.

Smear being the trigger word, which in the case of this article, really means smearing shit, which in it's turn took me back to primary school in the early fifties.

Even as I was doing the graphic I kept wondering how I was going to explain all this without getting too anal about it all.

Well I finished the graphic and then had a quick shuffty on the web side of google and came up with :
Does anyone remember their primary school's toilet paper?
seems I'm not the only one that remembers being given two sheets of greaseproof paper and being told to get on with it, in the outside loos of course.

AXED MADDIE COP: I'LL TALK FOR £75K

The police chief sacked from the Madeleine McCann probe after declaring her parents suspects is selling interviews at £75,000 a time.

Last night Madeleine’s doctor parents Kate, 41, and Gerry, 40, slammed his money-making antics.

Their spokesman Clarence Mitchell raged: “It is scandalous that anyone should seek to make money out of Madeleine’s abduction.

“Further than that Kate and Gerry will not dignify anything that Mr Amaral says with any comment.’’

They had to conduct their own search for their daughter – helped by public donations – after Amaral heaped suspicion on them four months after Madeleine vanished on May 3, 2007.

Kate quit her job as a GP to spend six months going through 17 volumes of police files.

Last night’s Channel 4 documentary, Madeleine Was Here, highlighted potentially vital leads that Portuguese police ignored.

These include five reported sightings of a sinister scar-faced stranger casing out the McCanns’ apartment – by four witnesses.

The McCanns’ investigators believe her kidnapping was a planned two-man operation.

They think she may still be alive and not even realise she has been abducted.

Daily Star.

Not being one simple enough that I buy newspapers I'm somewhat confused here, are there in fact two entirely different newspapers that publish under the same name, there must be I guess?

Gallery Forty Four

Today as your thoughts turn to Madeleine, might I ask you to spare one for this creature and know his mettle.







Thought For Today: Leicestershire Plod, it's long past time for your resignations.

Your prior record and your ongoing support of the McCanns can only be interpreted in one of two ways:

You are corrupt, ergo you are not fit to be in the job.

You believe the McCanns to be innocent, this makes you either extremely simple or very foolish, ergo you are not fit to be in the job.





These two are seriously taking the piss, but I can find some consolation that come judgement day, the terrestrial one that is, there are going to be, not ten of thousands, not hundreds of thousands, but millions of very foolish looking crimson faces about the place.

But it won't be the red faces per say that will be the problem, it will be the humiliation. for when the humiliation takes the only path open to it, then the real fun will start.

When the humiliation turns to anger these two incredible pieces of detritus are going to have to be locked away in a cell so tightly and protected to such a degree that fresh air and daylight will have to be pumped into them, after having first going through security that is.

In the meantime, I shall carry on with my knitting.

Sweet dreams you two.






I paid a call on me granny, as you do, and her being a hundred and forty like.
Well we got to chatting about various subjects and one of the things discussed was just how crap the modern day print media had become.

Eeeh lad, she said, does tha know nowt? 'tas always bin like that, go up to th'attic and bring me down that old suitcase.

Well I brought it down and she opened it up and I beheld a historical treasure trove, not least some very interesting old newspapers, but even more amazing she had actually saved both the early and late editions of a Daily Mail issue.

'ere, have a gander at these, said she.




Saturdays front pages.


Clarence Mitchell, you are such an arsehole.
And the Daily Mail is your toilet.

Get the bags ready, we are in for days of embarrassing arse licking drivel.

Why oh why is every motherfucker in this country ever so fucking 'umble?

I despair of it, all three rings are going full belt, and these wankers don't even know that the circus is in town!

~ ~ ~

Thought For a Few Days : Just one of you, is it too much to ask?

ETA : Having just read all that shite in the mail I have my doubts, boy do I have my doubts.

Bits n' Bobs

Thought for today: We've lost our child and we're going on the Oprah Winfrey Show.

.

~ ~ ~

Who writes this shit?


Disgraced Portuguese cop Goncala Amaral is desperate to appear with Madeleine McCann’s parents on Oprah.

Gerry and Kate McCann flew out to America yesterday.

They will appear on the TV show, hosted by Oprah Winfrey, 55, to mark the second anniversary of Maddie’s disappearance. And the couple will use the high-profile slot to release images of how Madeleine, who would be nearly six years old, may look now.

Amaral, kicked off the investigation after wrongly branding Gerry, 40, and Kate, 41, suspects, has emailed the show makers asking to appear.

He has offered to pay his travel costs and has yet to receive a response from the show. The McCanns agreed to appear on Oprah because it is shown in 144 countries.

They hope it will aid the hunt for Maddie, who vanished from Praia da Luz, Portugal, on May 3, 2007.

Kate and Gerry, from Rothley, Leics, wrote on the official Find Madeleine website: “As the second anniversary of Madeleine’s abduction approaches, there is much still to be done.

“We continue to remain focused on our aim – to find Madeleine and bring her back home safely.

“As Madeleine’s parents we cannot and will not ever stop doing all we can to find her.”

The couple have also been working with a C4 documentary crew.

~ ~ ~

.



.
My hat off to Tony Bennett.

~

Thought for today: Does nobody get embarrassed any more?

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

.
Something a little different to start the day off, bits and bobs I came across yesterday and a couple more to come throughout the day.

Hat tips to all concerned.

~ ~ ~

I seem to be having a bit of a god slot today, not particularly intentional, apart from the "prayers" post of course, this next piece is about Leicester plod but when I checked up on Chief Constable Matt Baggott, the ubiquitous Sky Daddy pops his head up yet again.

It would appear that our Chief Constable is a godly man, a Christian of the highest order in fact.

Matt was awarded a CBE in the 2008 New Years Honours. He was awarded the Queen's Police Medal in June 2004, elected a Fellow of University College London in 2006, and awarded an Honorary Doctorate of Letters by De Montfort University, Leicester, in July 2007. He is President of the Christian Police Association, and Vice President of the National Association of Police Chaplains. Until recently he was also a Trustee of Crime Concern for many years. Bio

To die before one's time is always a tragedy, to die in infancy and before your life even gets started is a tragedy without equal. The only blessing for Madeleine is that she cannot witness just how worthless her life to those in a position to give it value even in death.

A far greater blessing is that she can never witness the behaviour of her parents.


The following lifted from the Three Arguidos, not something I shall make a habit of but it is too important a subject to ignore. Some snips from the first page.

Author. Sherlock: Proof of Leicester Police Collusion With Cover-Up


I have just reviewed Clarence Mitchell's pretendy policeman press conference on cooperman. The spin is nauseating but crucially Stuart Prior AND his team are on record as alerting the PJ to the fact that Mrs Coopers second statement was radically altered from her original . Mitchell pretends that her second statement is the same as her first one and that her second statement was passed to PJ in May 2007-he does his usual mealy mouthed hinting that the PJ have ignored Mrs coopers statement in fact they didnt get her radically different account until AFTER clarrie's pretendy policeman press conference. Stuart Prior and his colleagues were fully aware of these facts yet sat on their hands and did nothing-if LEICS police Genuinely BELIEVED that Madeleine had been abducted they should have immediately cautioned and countered the misinformation being spread by Clarence Mitchell and at the very least cautioned him regarding perverting the course of justice-if they know full well Madeleine is dead they should have cautioned him and informed the general public of the discrepancies in mrs xcoopers two disparate account -they sat on their hands and did neither-I am OFF TO the IPPC website



(Follow up Sherlock) :
Fat lot of use that was-the only person who can complain on MADELEINES behalf is someone with her written permission or the relatives who caused her to disappear or the useless judge who is supposed to represent her and qants the fictional cooper/bundleman caught-still think I am on to something though I wont waste my time on Matt Baggott-the macs are not the only people who know people


(Somethinfishie reply):

'the only person who can complain on MADELEINES behalf is someone with her written permission '

Good one sherlock.So a missing,possibly dead child needs to give written permission for people to ask questions on her behalf. You couldn't make it up.


(Miceandmen):

Off the top of my head, here are just a few of the things the LP did with our tax pounds:

1) Sent a family liasion officer to PDL
2) Brought in numerous other Forces to assist
3) Provided a Police escort from the Airport to Castle Gardens for the Prime Suspects
4) Collected a pillow from Castle Gardens & Delivered it to the FSS
5) Assisted in getting M Harrison to Portugal & then ignored his report
6) Provided a Link from the LP web-site to the private Company web-site of the Prime Suspects
7) Travelled to Portugal to prevent 'certain information' from reaching the Public
8 ) Witheld for 5 months witness statements incriminating one of the T7
9) Communicated with the T9 in a highly casual, friendly & wholly unprofessional manner
10) Went to the High Court & allowed TM to get their hands on 141 (or thereabouts) pieces of information
11) Continued to support the Private Company of the prime suspects by advertising a link to the web-site

& last by no means least,

12) perverted the course of Justice by advising the T9 that they so no value in them returning to PDL for the reconstruction.

I know that there is an awful lot more, that is just for starters.

The LP have spent millions of pounds on the Investigation, but on what exactly & of what benefit to the investigation ?
.



(xclamation):

13 ) Allowed the tapas group to read their previous statements, and each other's depositions, allowed the tapas to change and edit the answers, led the answers, boycotted the recordings of the said statements - FACT

14) Leaked documents to journalists and to the McCann Team. - FACT

Link in the header.

~ ~ ~

Thankfully none more than a minute or two in length, seven short clips of that odious little shite John McCann, this link to the second clip in which he lies and bullshits his way around the "dining in your back garden" mantra. He's such a little cunt.

~ ~ ~

I've cut the proverbs out of this..... call it what you will, nor have I highlighted any particular tract, there are far too many.

The spelling in this piece gives away the country of origin, and no you can't have prize for a correct answer.

Prayers For Madeleine:

Lord, we declare freedom to Madeleine, liberty to return to her family. Lord, we recall how you miraculously released Paul & Silas, and we pray a miraculous release for Madeleine, and we give You all the praise and honor and glory for her rescue.

Lord, we are standing on this word and trusting You that Madeleine will not be afraid, that she will be secure in the love of her heavenly father and family, knowing that they are looking for her, trusting that they will find her very soon.


For Kate, Gerry, and Madeleine:

Lord, we believe this word, that You are with Kate, Gerry, and Madeleine, that as they pass through this desperate time, You are carrying them. Your word says we are pressed but not crushed, persecuted but not abandoned, struck down but not destroyed, we are blessed beyond the curse for Your promise will endure, Your joy will be our strength. Lord, may Kate, Gerry, and Madeleine feel Your loving arms wrapped around them as You carry them through this dark night, these troubled waters, this burning fire. Fill them to overflowing with the power of Your Holy Spirit, that they will have great faith to trust in the sufficiency of Your grace, the power of Your presence, the strength of Your joy.

Lord, as Kate and Gerry meditate on Your word, we pray Your truth will bring real comfort and hope to them.

Lord, cause Kate and Gerry to lay the search for Madeleine at Your feet, for You, O Lord, are capable, all-powerful, and loving. Cause them to trust You completely to accomplish Your perfect will. We pray they will not seek help from any source that is not of You.


For the investigation:

We pray that You would flood Praia da Luz and surrounding area with Your light and love, that the darkness would not be able to hide but would be exposed by Your light and justice.

Lord, cause a flood of witnesses to come forward. We declare they will not fear man but will trust in Your divine protection for them and their families so they will have the courage and boldness to submit information that will lead to the rescue of Madeleine. We pray You will show them who to give their information to - reveal who is on Your side and who is being used as a tool of the enemy.


Lord, give those in authority wisdom as they choose a replacement to head Madeleine's investigation. We pray for a righteous man to be placed in this position, the person of Your choosing, one who will seek You for wisdom and direction in the search for Madeleine. Cause this to be a new day for Madeleine's investigation, that they could move forward with great acceleration as they seek You daily for divine guidance.

Lord, we speak truth in the media. We declare an end to wild speculation.

The above sounds all too familiar to me, you see I used to come across lots of these noble institutions when I blogged about America. If you really fancy giving yourself a cor blimey moment or two, have a wander through some of the archives in any of these sites. It's a revelation I tell ye.

You can pray for Bush. (as he goes about his important work in Iraq.)

And just so you don't get your days mixed up here is your own prayer calender.

I was about to say that the Presidential Prayer Team has hijacked Obama, but they haven't, he's just as bad as the rest of them, but for the funny stuff I guess you need to delve back into the Dubya archives.

And last but by no means least the Presidential Prayer Team for Kids, now that's really what I call child abuse.

~ ~ ~

X asked: Their whole case was based on Kate knowing that Madeleine had been abducted when the wind from the open window blew the curtains.

If someone had a key they would come in and go out by the door. Why try to take a child out of the window, or even pass the child to someone else if you have the key.


Y replied: Simply to mask the fact that they had the key.

The last time I heard an argument like that was that God had made fossils look old and placed them in the earth to, wait for it, " Test our faith" Bill Hicks explains.

Gallery Thirty Eight

"PICTURES of what Madeleine McCann looks like now are to be revealed on Oprah Winfrey's talk show."

Offensive? Tell it to those two cunts from Rothley. This is the true world of Kate and Gerry McCann, this is the reality.

How much lower can these two creatures go? this pair of animals have gone beyond evil, I just don't know how to describe them.

But here's a message, McCanns and all your tainted kin, Clarence Mitchell you despicable piece of shit, all of you, and all the lawyers you can muster, if you want to try and shut me up in a court of law, then bring it fucking on.

You can have your day and I will surely have mine.

~ ~ ~ ~

.
If she don't getcha I'm sure the audience will, drive on Gerry!





.
Oh dear oh dear oh dear oh me, I hadn't planned on watching Amaral's documentary until there was some kind of translation floating about, nor had I planned on doing any more this evening.

But I have just watched the first segment and I don't think I've seen anything so funny in years, here's just the tip of the iceberg then, oh for a good quality DVD, I'd bet within would be enough material to keep me going for weeks.

What a pair of prats.


.
I'm sure he's going to be devastated, but try as I may I just can't get my new super hero to "work," what a shame.

Having tried all sorts of combinations and dodges, nothing but nothing comes out right, perhaps it's his chubby little chops that don't fit too well with our preconceived notions of "superhero," what you see below is the only thing I could get anywhere near.

So this is a one off, drive on Sardineman!



.

LOOKING BACK ON THE MADDIE CASE

The iris “is Madeleine’s only true distinctive feature. Certainly we thought it was possible that this could potentially hurt her or”—he grimaces—“her abductor might do something to her eye.… But in terms of marketing, it was a good ploy.”

Gerry McCann in Vanity Fair, 10 January 2008

Gallery Thirty Six

I don't know why it's taken me so long to produce a little something depicting my take on the relationship between Gerry McCann and his mouthpiece Clarence Mitchell.

I've always found it strange that the parents of an abducted child should need the services a spin doctor, it must be unique in fact, the first time ever that aggrieved parents would do such a thing.

I could of course be mistaken, it wouldn't be the first time, but having given it a little thought I have it somewhere in the back of my mind that the McCanns were spared the dubious honour of being the first in the record book, spared indeed by being pre-empted by John and Patsy Ramsey who employed the services of Lin Wood* after white trash mother offed her daughter JonBenet Ramsey.

I digress a tad, to the point then. We are all more than familiar with this rather bizarre scene below of said aggrieved parents and their creature, but it was the second image that finally galvanised me into a little creative action.

I had never seen this particular photo before yesterday, others depicting the return to work of the good Doctor McCann yes, but never this particular one that reveals the presence of fore mentioned spin doctor, the odious Clarence Mitchell.

Joined at the hip so it were, inextricably linked, welded together forever and a day, something I'm sure Clarence Mitchell is not unaware of, particularly when the inevitable day of reckoning arrives.




Lin Wood* scroll down for: Ramsey attorney fights back in civil court, public opinion Wood's name made with Ramseys
One or two things might have a ring of familiarity about them.

For The Record

I have read a few comments around the place regarding this poster and quite varied they are, so
I would just like to clarify why I find this reprehensible use of Mari Luz's image so loathsome and abhorrent.


While the fate of this poor little girl was still unknown and there might still have been a ray of hope for the lass, the McCanns for their own cheap shitty ends had put Mari Luz not only alongside Madeleine in the poster but put Mari Luz alongside Madeleine in the grave, a fact that I'm sure was not lost on the child's parents.

Wasn't the anguish and agony that the Cortes's were suffering enough, wasn't it enough without having a vile detestable creature like Gerry McCann hijack the image of their daughter and use it for his own base ends? evidently not.

~~~~~~

“It is shameful that Mari Luz’s father has brought himself to complain,” was the reaction of Clarence Mitchell, the spokesman for the McCann couple, in response to the request from Juan Jose Cortés that the posters with the photo of his daughter beside Madeleine should not be distributed.

Clarence Mitchell To Address Oxford Student's Union

On the eve of Clarence Mitchell's address to the Oxford Student's Union I thought I might bring you this timely reminder of his and the McCann's determination to leave no stone unturned in their search for the missing five year old Madeleine McCann.

Madeleine was three years old when she was abducted from an unlocked rented apartment in the quiet Portuguese resort of Praia Da Luz while her parents dined at a restaurant a short distance away.

Mister McCann reiterated his belief that Madeleine was still alive,
"Reassuringly, we know there is absolutely no evidence whatsoever to suggest that Madeleine has been seriously harmed." said Mister McCann in a recent interview.

In a previous interview Mrs McCann said, "Somebody has committed a heinous crime."

In a recent newspaper interview with the Independent in an article humbly entitled:
'I am a decent human being. If I can help them, I will' (link) Clarence Mitchell said about the Private Detectives employed by the McCanns in their quest for leaving no stone unturned:
"The detective agencies they hired are no longer on the case." and when further queeried as to the status quo Mitchell had this to say:
"I can't go into details, because the investigators don't wish me to." but did go on to confirm that there was still a relevant search going on albeit on a smaller scale.

Mister Mitchell did however give an insight into the daunting task faced by investigators.

There is still a huge amount of material to work through: such as more than 3,000 "psychic tip-offs. Any verifiable fact in them – and some are very detailed – has to be checked". said Mitchell.

.

~~~
.

A Little More

.

h/t Clarence Mitchell.

Freud Communications, I Have A Question

Do you actually employ this clown or is it as I suspect just an internet myth?

The gloves are off...

By Nigel Moore/Martin Roberts

11 December 2008

Speaking to RTE's 'Prime Time', in October 2007, Clarence Mitchell said that Madeleine could "easily" have been kidnapped by an abductor who did not leave the trail of a break-in.

"There was no evidence of a break-in," said Mr Mitchell reversing the statements made by the McCanns to their closest family and friends in the immediate hours after Madeleine's reported disappearance.

"I'm not going into the detail, but I can say that Kate and Gerry are firmly of the view that somebody got into the apartment and took Madeleine out the window as their means of escape, and to do that they did not necessarily have to tamper with anything. They got out of the window fairly easily."

Mr Mitchell's words overlook the fact that the abductor would have had to, at the very least, open the window and shutter from inside the apartment - using one or other hand in the process. In so doing, they would, like Kate McCann, have left a trace i.e. a fingerprint or two, unless, of course, they were wearing gloves.

Close inspection of the Tanner authorised artist's impression, sufficiently detailed as to convey the pattern on the child's pyjamas, reveals that both the subject's hands were bare. No fingerprint means quite simply that this person, whoever he may have been, did not open the bedroom window of 5A between 9.05 (Gerry's visit) and 9.15 (the Tanner sighting).

h/t McCannfiles

And let us not forget this pearl of all pearls, this drivel without compare.

"There is no suggestion she has been harmed or killed," says Clarence Mitchell. "They believe she has been hidden somewhere. It could be a Romany family who have taken her. It's unusual but not completely rare. As long as there is money in the find to pay for investigators, the investigation will continue. If and when it runs out, there are ways to bring more money in."

Clarence Mitchell: Sophisticated PR Guru or Just a Stupid Twat?

.

Kate McCann's Private Diary

You know the one I'm talking about, the super private one she wrote knowing that nobody in the whole wide world was ever ever going to read it.

A snippet or two.















A.Miller, Kates Diary
http://joana-morais.blogspot.com/2009/1 ... mment-form
comments from # 28

Excuse the following for being off topic. I have never until now read Kate McCann's diary. I came across it in an article in the press whilst looking for something else.

Given that it is written by the mother of a 3year old child who disappeared when her parents where out dining, leaving her and her twin siblings, two years old at the time alone in an unlocked holiday apartment, to say it is the most bizarre thing I have ever read is an understatement.

I believe this diary was written after Aunty Phil suggested it would be something nice to give to Madeleine when she returned.

What strikes me most about the entries, is that in the main, they are about Kate and occasionally about Gerry. She continually speaks of HER pain, HER suffering, how SHE wants Madeleine back as this will restore HER, FORMER lifestyle as she is not happy with her life as it is at the time of writing.

What I find odd too is that she writes 'M' for Madeleine. I cannot imagine every referring to my missing child, in diary entries or other, only by the first initial of her name. She does likewise with Sean and Amelie. Yet when she has something to tell us about herself, her activities, going to church or running, nothing is abbreviated. We see this in great detail.

It is clear also, that she finds the twins challenging. So many entries about how she finds it difficult to get them to bed. Wasted days etc. Madeleine is the child who it is said was more full of energy, not a good sleeper. Did Kate have difficulty getting Madeleine to bed in the evenings?

She is also very angry at the suggestion that they, she and Gerry, allowed contamination of the crime scene to take place. She expresses this by wanting to phone to speak to someone to vent her anger.

Further along in the diary, she mentions that there has been a suggestion that Madeleine is buried near cliffs.

Her response to this was: "What can I say?" She then goes on to talk about herself once more, how can one BODY, take so much pain etc.

There is not the same anger at the thought of someone saying her daughter may be buried at beach/cliffs, as there is when it is suggested that she and Gerry were to blame for something.

The self protection always to the fore.

What I find most bizarre about this diary, is that it is not something you would want to pass on to your child if she returned.
She speaks of her pain, then includes comments in reference to Madeleine, 'IF' we have let you down. 'IF' you are suffering.

She speaks of Madeleine being with paedophiles. Then comments - 'IF' you are suffering.

She states also, that she hopes Madeleine's suffering is less than her own.

A mother would hope that her child is NOT suffering at all. Not just suffering less than she herself is. She appears to be comparing levels of pain.

She speaks of worrying about Madeleine as she knows that Madeleine FEARS PAIN.

What pain could a three year old child have experienced that would make a mother make such a statement?

If a child falls and grazes a knee, the child may cry. They may not like a vaccination, as it may be painful. No child likes to feel these types of pain obviously.

But what is Kate McCann referring to when she states that she KNOWS Madeleine doesn't like pain. If she thinks her child is with a paedophile - she will be experiencing the most awful pain in every sense.

She speaks of paedophiles at the shops? She speaks of paedophiles being held in 'NICE' surroundings, she wouldn't mind that, as long as they don't get to children. She thinks she should have been informed of paedophiles and then they could have taken more care, felt more safe.

These are two medical professionals. Are they telling us that they did not know of the dangers of paedophiles before Madeleine, in their thesis, was taken by one?

She makes comment on Amelie, saying that she did not realise Amelie could speak so well.

Why would she not know that her daughter could speak as well as she could at the time? How can you not know?

THURSDAY, MAY 3: Milk and biscuits for the kids. I LEFT them with this and books and games and went to have a quick shower/wash my hair. M (Madeleine) tired—sitting on my lap—I read the story of Mog (favourite children's book).

Brush teeth. To the bedroom with the kids. M pulls away and puts her head on pillow. Kisses goodnight for M. Pulled the door to as far as possible without shutting it. Silence.

Dry hair. Put make-up on. Glass of wine. Restaurant.


(NO MENTION OF DAVID PAYNE I SEE. OR GERRY FOR THAT MATTER!)

FRIDAY, MAY 4: No sleep, Gerry and I started looking through the streets around 06.00 as it was starting to get light. Nobody around. Why not? Desperate.

MONDAY, MAY 14: I slept well last night after a not very good end of the day, frustration with the FLO (Portuguese police family liaison officer) asking me where would my little M be.

I got up at 06.50. I DEALT WITH SOME TRIFLES and got myself ready for the statement to the press at 08.00.

(FRUIT TRIFLES, OR SOME TRIFLING MATTERS?)

I tried to put on a slightly more presentable and "healthy" air. Gerry AGAIN Gave a great PERFORMANCE.

Following on we answered about four questions. I almost responded to the first one asking how we were, but I didn't. I did answer a question on our possible return home. I replied that obviously I didn't even think about that. Anyway, it seemed to have GONE WELL well. After breakfast and our having left S and A, we went to church to pray in silence. Very good, calming.

(AS YOU DO - LEAVE THE KIDS TO GO TO THE PUB, TO GO TO PRAY)


After getting back I decided to go running—for the first time since THE day (already 11 days ago). I knew that it was going to be physically difficult, but I also knew that I wasn't going to give up, BECAUSE IT WAS FOR MADELEINE and also because the level of pain is far higher now.

(SHE WAS RUNNING FOR MADELEINE'S BENEFIT)
SUNDAY, MAY 27: Clarence (Clarence Mitchell, Foreign Office family liaison at the time) spoke to us about a possible trip to the Vatican. It seems that it REALLY is going to happen—MAIN STORY ON THE NEWS!

WEDNESDAY, MAY 30: (After trip to see Pope detailed above) THE KIDS WENT TO BED AGAIN AROUND 9PM!!

(BEDTIME ROUTINE CLEARLY CHANGED FROM THEIR USUAL OF BEING IN BED BY 6;30 - 7;00 PM THEN?)

Fed up again —poor M. Once again it took a long time before S and A were sorted. Finally went to church for 10 minutes.

Private worship (despairing!).

Cried again in bed—I can't avoid it. I need her close to me. Thinking about her FEAR OF PAIN breaks my heart.

Thinking about paedophiles makes me want to tear at my own skin. Of course these people, like psychopaths, aren't "normal" human beings. I was never in favour of the death penalty, but these people should be kept in a secure place. I wouldn't even complain if it was in NICE SURROUNDINGS but, certainly in the case of paedophiles always distanced from any type of contact with children.

Whose human rights are more important? Those of a paedophile or of a vulnerable, defenceless child?
---

(WASN'T IT KATE WHO LEFT HER VULNERABLE DEFENCELESS CHILDREN IN AN UNLOCKED APARTMENT ABUSING THEIR RIGHT TO PROTECTION AND CARE?)
----


FRIDAY, JUNE 1: Quite fed up...I can't stop thinking about Madeleine, about her FEAR OF PAIN. How can I go on knowing that her LIFE could have ENDEDended like this?

Bedtime is becoming more and more of a CHALLENGE.


THURSDAY, JUNE 7:

I can't bear this. I can't bear being without Madeleine. It's like torture—a slow, painful death. I hope HER suffering, IF she is suffering, is much less. Please God.

SUNDAY, JUNE 17: Cherie Blair (then the Premier's wife) phoned to find out how we were.
SUNDAY, JUNE 17: Cherie Blair (then the Premier's wife) phoned to find out how we were.

I also had the chance to speak to Tony (then Prime Minister) who told me that we weren't to hesitate to ask him if there was something he could do to help.

On Sky News tonight they suddenly said the Portuguese police had stated that the crime scene had been contaminated—BECAUSE OF US—and that fundamental evidence had been lost. How dare they insinuate that OUR DAUGHTER'S LIFE could be put in DANGER BECAUSE OF US Very angry. Very upset.

I want to speak to someone now, but it's too late.

---

ISN'T THAT EXACTLY HOW THEIR DAUGHTER'S LIFE WAS PUT IN DANGER, BECAUSE OF THEM?

--

WEDNESDAY, JUNE 20: There is still no sign of Madeleine. I didn't feel like it so I decided not to go running.

SATURDAY, JUNE 23: I woke up after 7am hesitating (again!) about going running but eventually I built up enough enthusiasm to convince Gerry that we should go. He ran quite well and without a doubt it was worth us going.

----

OH THAT WAS NICE

----

Will we see her again one day? HOW CAN THIS END WELL NOW?

She’s so precious. God I need you to do something soon. I’m so desperate and suffering so much.

This evening I felt quite low again. It's the awful uncertainty, helplessness and worry. It’s really unbearable. I only want to be able to hide or hibernate until this is all over and Madeleine is back. Please make sure she’s OK.

The usual—dinner, a FEW DRINKS and emails. Good night. Good night my darling, longing to lie down.

---

I'LL BET YOU ARE AFTER A FEW DRINKS!
TUESDAY, JUNE 26: I went for a short walk to the shops nearby. I had heard that there was a paedophile there. Nice, isn't it?

If people informed us about these criminals of course we’d be more cautious and we'd feel safer!

dinner, had a FEW DRINKS despite having said I wanted it without alcohol!! We talked some more.

I’m so sorry IF I/WE let you down. I hope you know how FOND of you we are and that we would NEVER do anything INTENTIONALLY that would put you in danger—of any kind. You are so precious to me. You make me so happy and I miss you so much. Please God, please Mary, keep watch over our sweet Madeleine. Keep her safe and sound and bring her back to us soon! X X

SATURDAY, JULY 7: We had breakfast and got the children READY AS USUAL. At 10.30 the four of us went to the Algarve Shopping Centre.

The plan was to buy sandals and some other things for the children. However the journey was a DISASTER We had to stop three times on the way there, since Sean and Amelie were crying alternately.

I began to feel that it had been a WASTED day, even though Sean and Amelie had some good goes in Noddy's car and Popeye's boat. The return journey was SLIGHTLY MORE BEARABLE.

---

TERRIBLE WHEN YOU HAVE PESKY KIDS MAKING YOUR LIFE UNBEARABLE EH/

WASN'T IT A DISASTER TOO, GERRY SAID WHEN SPEAKING TO KATES MUM AFTER MADELEINE DISAPPEARED?

---

THURSDAY, JULY 12: I hate the person who took my Madeleine—the SAME ONE who has caused ALL THIS TROUBLE, who made us feel worthless and mistrustful and mainly who has frightened my beautiful Madeleine. I will never forgive that person/those people for this. Never. --

SOUNDS ALMOST AS THOUGH SHE KNOWS WHO THIS PERSON IS!

----

Today I washed the Cuddle Cat (Madeleine's favourite soft toy and a constant comfort to heartbroken Kate). I was hoping not to have to do it until Madeleine returns, but it was now quite dirty and smelly, unfortunately without the smell of Madeleine on it. XX

---

SO KATE IS SAYING THE SMELL OF MADELEINE HAD GONE BEFORE WASHING THE TOY CAT?
TUESDAY, JULY 17
Earlier today I found Amelie in our room looking at photos of Madeleine and she said: "I miss my sister. Where's my sister?"

I couldn't believe it. I DIDN'T REALISE AMELIE'S VOCABULARY AND USE OF WORDS WAS SO GOO. I just said: "I miss her too. We'll find her soon." What a little sweetheart!

---
MAYBE IF SHE HAD KNOWN HER KIDS BETTER SHE WOULD HAVE THOUGHT TO WAKE SEAN AND AMELIE ON 3RD MAY AND ASK IF THEY HAD SEEN ANYTHING. IF SHE'S ASKED THEM IF MADELEINE HAD GONE TO LOOK FOR MUMMY AND DADDY, AND THEY HAD SEEN MADELEINE GET OUT OF BED, I'M SURE THEY COULD HAVE SAID YES OR NO.

--

WEDNESDAY, JULY 18: It was suggested that Madeleine is dead and buried in an area close to the beach, behind the cliff.

WHAT CAN I SAY?

I feel my body's on the verge of collapse. How much pain and emotion can one body take? I had a bad afternoon. I was very worried, desperate, extremely on edge. I don't think I can take any more of this, I really can't. How much longer will this suffering go on? I need Madeleine ALIVE.


MONDAY, JULY 23: I got up at 7.00 and went running. I was surrounded by a pack of dogs (more or less 12)—it really wasn't a nice experience.

-
DID SHE COUNT THEM, MORE OR LESS?

---

I went to the flat, high part of the cliff as I felt really alone and a little frightened. Please God, don't let Madeleine be buried here. Please God, make sure she's alive. Please God, bring her back quickly to us.

----

WAS SHE FRIGHTENED OF THE DOGS? WHICH DOGS? MAYBE WE SHOULD ASK THEM?

----

I took S and A to the Kids' Club at 9.45 then I went to church to pray a little on my own.

Every single moment of happiness with Sean and Amelie, who are both so delightful, is mixed with deep sadness. All I want is Madeleine to be safe and happy again.

Baths, stories and some BEDTIME CHAOS FROM SEAN AND AMELIE before I FINALLY put them to bed at 21.15.

----

BEDTIME ROUTINE REALLY NOT WHAT IT USED TO BE WHEN THEY WERE ON HOLIDAY IN APRIL 2007.

----

Night, night sweetheart. I'm trying to be positive. I need to be because I need to believe that you’re going to come back to me, so I CAN GO BACK TO BEING TRULY HAPPY. I love you XXX.

---

IT'S NOT SO THAT MADELEINE'S PAIN AND SUFFERING COMES TO AN END THEN?